I’m just gonna smoke a whole joint to myself and let it take the pain away. I have the next few days off from work, so I plan to spend them in a weed coma. Maybe the bad feelings will go away over time if I just numb them out.
On the lighter side, a female friend who’s been flirting with me lately is coming over tomorrow. I’ve been pushing her away, but now, I don’t have a reason to anymore. My heart doesn’t belong to anybody, and I can do whatever the fuck I want. I don’t know why I ever thought differently. Silly me.